Hey everyone! Lots to update, not a lot of time to do-so (as of writing this), so I'm gonna be gradually updating this throughout the day as much as can be done. But the short of it is that my life is going to be changing in the coming weeks, as I am switching jobs relatively soon, am thinking on whether or not I'm gonna be going to grad school this year/next year (depending on the institution I attend), or if I'm holding off on it for now, and in general, how my mental and physical health are going to be developing/deteriorating in the coming years.
In terms of my health, I have some chronic conditions that have been progressing in particularly painful directions as of late, and I am genuinely scared that things are only going to get worse overtime, even after changing my career path. The only way to know what's gonna happen is to wait and see, however.
I'm so tired. I barely get any break today at work, had to eat so fast, and now after eating as fast as I could, I have less than 10 minutes of actual break, then I go right back to work with one of my highest energy clients. I just need it to be the weekend, I need it more than anything in the entire world. I am pushing myself to the limit and beyond, and I don't know how much longer I can do this. I have to stay with my job until my grad school debt is paid. I have about 1500 left, which is about one pay check. I just need to push a little further and I'm free. Just a little more. Jesus.
My job expects a 4 week notice too. Yikes, if I was to quit right now, they would want me to keep this up for another 4 weeks. Gotta do what you gotta do, I suppose.
Tonight is date night with me and my boyfriend, so I have that to look forward to at least. Just gotta keep trucking on. I just wanna go home, honestly. But, in the eternal words of Mick Jagger, you can't always get what you want. I do get an extra long weekend because of a PTO I'm taking on monday, so that's nice.
Apart from work, learning lua is going well, I've really enjoyed coding in it! Once I have a finished started project, I'll upload the game download to my website. Will probably have to make a new category for games, since it doesn't nicely fit in any other category. Not sure what I want to make, just wanna get a solid feel for the syntax, then I'm gonna go straight into it. Nothing complicated, though.
Finally got home. The end of work was as stressful as I expected; absolutely nightmarish. At least its over, and I got to go home early (my work does "fun fridays" if you've done all your odd tasks on time, and lets you leave once the clients leave). As soon as I got home, I went to walk my dog, and he got way too excited and started nipping me like crazy. He just kept targeting the same spot on my stomach, and it hurts so bad now. I'm still pretty angry with him, although now he's being sweet and cuddly, so its hard to stay mad at him. I'm glad to be home, all the same. Gonna relax, then when my boyfriend comes home, we're gonna go to cracker barrel, and we're gonna have a good fucking time.
Update after cracker barrel: I had a good fucking time! Food was amazing, super cheap, and we bought novelty switch-blade combs and a couple fancy rootbeers from the gift shop in the front :3 I am very happy now, especially that, even after a day as rough as they get, I can still feel good by the end of it with just a little help from my friends < 3
Anyway, its getting late, and I should turn in. Love all of you < 3
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