Hey all! one of my coworkers is out, so the extra break we usually get to do case management and supervision duties is gone, which means today is gonna be busy. Not looking forward to it. In any event, I gotta get through it, and get paid. I am basically out of money, and eing broke isn't very fun. I need to get my oil changed, and also need to get my emissions tested, but have absolutely no money, literally like 2 dollars in my account. Fortunately, my boyfriend gets paid on the 11th, so I will be able to at least get my emissions tested before my plates get suspended, but shit sucks. I say that I'm broke, but in reality, I may be broke, but my boyfriend isn't, although still, the holidays hit us hard in terms of finances, since there are just so many people who need gifts. Yeah, sure, I love the whole gift giving thing, but the cost is immense. Definitely makes sense why people tend to commit suicide around this season; the change in weather and daylight, paired with the expectation of expensive gift giving being the primary issues. This is not to say that I am suicidal, just tired. I feel like I haven't had a proper break in a while, since it seems like every weekend there's another thing that I need to do, and then once the weekend is over, its time for work all over again. Its a lot. I wonder if autistic burnout is a thing that I'm going through, because I am so exhausted, and am dreading this weekend solely because both days are filled with parties and get togethers with friends and family, and all I really want is a couple days of actual rest. Oh well, just gotta keep carrying on, I suppose.
This fatigue has been nearly unbearable. I just want to sleep for a a week straight, and then maybe I'll be ready to see/be seen by anyone in particular. That's adult life though, isn't it? No rest forthe wicked, and so on. I lost my keys as well, that's fun.
Oh well. I hope everyone out there is doing better than I am. I love you all.